Thursday, June 23, 2011

Prayer, it either changes You or Your circumstance

What does Prayer do? at times it feels like its the only thing you can do while doing your best with everything that you can do. Sometime we pray for certain outcomes that we want God to perform, while we are praying we are also hoping in faith that our prayer will be answered with the outcome that we are wanting.

And sometimes it may not be God's will in regards with the desired outcome that we are hoping for. While we pray, God uses the prayer to change the desire in our hearts to match according to His will and that is if we are in a right attitude towards Him. This might happen gradually or instantly. The thing that I have noticed with myself is that, it is gradually taking place.

At the same time God wants to change our circumstance and our life with what He feels best for us. It could be that God answered our prayers with the desired outcome that we were hoping for. Which ever happens, it really depends on how strong you are really holding on to God and how much time you are willing to spend time on prayer.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

My dad's vision and mine

I called my dad the other day and he mentioned about how he was going to Singapore for a couple of days to preach in a church and to meet couple of well known preachers. The purpose of his visit was to invite one of those preachers for the upcoming conference that he is organizing in South Africa.

My dad has this vision of how there should be unity in the body of Christ and that the body of Christ should be joined in together in unity so that the coming of the Lord can take place. Today we cant see much of unity in the body of Christ. From denominational barriers to personal conflicts amongst pastors and leaders exist today. My dad's main aim is to promote unity in the Body of Christ, where every one comes together with one aim that is to have unity in Christ, forgetting all their personal conflicts and denominational barriers.

Over the years I have seen how my dad has taken hold of his vision and is running with it. Sometimes it has been challenging for us in the past as a family since he use to travel allot to meet with pastors and leaders locally and internationally to promote unity. He also organises conferences that brings pastors and leaders together with one aim that is to bring unity. In the past he has organized 3 conferences in 3 different countries and all of them have been successful in bringing together local pastors and leaders in unity.

He has been running with this vision for a while now and I still remember of how my dad use to pray allot in the night when I was a small boy. At that time I did not understand much but today I do. He would use to walk in the living room from left to right as he prayed. Today as I look back, I understand that how God gave him this vision and that was through prayer. My dad found his God given vision and His purpose in that. Not to mention also of how he used to fast two meals in a day for a whole year as he prayed for this God given vision to be fulfilled.

I am grateful that I am also a part in his God given vision as I am starting my early ministry years. But I cant say that God has given me a vision also. So far it has not been clear. I am praying that God will make it clear for me in the coming days. But I know that God has called me to preach His words of life. Nothing gives me the satisfaction that I get every time I preach God's word. Over the few months as I pressed on to God on finding what He wanted me to do, I have had dreams of prophesying to people and preaching His word to different nations and have received words of knowledge about that from respected servants of God.

I am going to stay in faith and do my best where God has placed me and I pray that God will make His vision clearer for me. Perhaps He has already done it and I just have to wait for the right timing for the vision to be fully birthed in my heart.
At this point of time I know that the vision is slowly taking root in my heart, praise be to God.

I pray and hope that you will find your vision from God.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Rhythm of Change ?

In the past few days, the weather has been getting colder. Its no surprise since we are entering into the winter season. Nature has a cycle of change or I would say it as the rhythm that God placed when He created the earth.

Just as nature having its own rhythm, we too have this rhythm in our life. The rhythm of change. When I say change it gives you a sense of joy at the same time a sense of uncertainty.

probably for you it could not be the case, but for me it is. For no one can be certain about the uncertainty unless they themselves travel along the same path that you are travelling.

The good thing about change is that it helps you to grow and to learn new things while on the other it places you in situations that you are not in control of. When we get use to our routine life we feel that we are so much in control of our own life.

The truth is we just got use to it so much so that we feel that we are in control. From the work that we do to the relationships that we have. Think about this, if you wake up tomorrow totally in a different place seeing different people, how would you feel?

But I believe that God places us in those situations, when we feel helpless, and it does not necessarily mean that you would be waking up in a different place but rather you will be placed in different situations where you are strecthed from your limits

Why ? because that's the place that we get to know God in a more meaningful way. Because when I am helpless and I have done all that I can to change my circumstance and nothing happens that's when I know that I am not in control but
God is and He is able to make all things work for good.

Maybe at the present time I am not sure how things would work out.
And sometimes fear and anxiety can infect a peaceful mind with lies and confusion. But every time I look to God, He fills me with the peace that surpasses all understanding.

I pray and believe that God will open up the right doors of opportunity for me. Do support me in your prayers.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Little Jordan

Today I had an experience that I could never forget in my life. Part of me still struggles to understand of why God had to allow this to happen . I went to the hospital to visit my friend. They are more like a family to me, they just recently welcomed a baby girl in their life.

The baby was named as Jordan and I had the privilege of holding the precious child in my arms. The baby went to be with the Lord before I even entered the ward to see the child. Her tiny eyes were closed, she was dressed with a white dress and was wrapped in a warm cloth. The pastor at that time took pictures of the baby for the family.

I also had the privilege to pray for the baby and I just asked God to bless her soul and that I thanked God for giving the family Jordan and that He was still with them in this difficult time.

As I was praying, deep inside my heart I could not understand where God was in this picture. A day before yesterday I was so confident that God was going to heal the child. But some times God chooses to work in different ways rather to what we expect Him to do for us. I know today that Jordan is in a better place because of the blood of Jesus Christ.

Death is a part of humanity, but really because Of Jesus Christ we continue to live on even though our earth suit gives up . This is faith and this is what keeps me going. It becomes a big shock to us when we walk these sort of path in life and it has certainly been for me. I will always remember Jordan who has inspired me to see how precious life is and that the very breath that we take in is from God.

I don't have the answers of why God took Jordan home early but I know that He is a faithful God and that everything that He does has a purpose. I know that one day God will reveal to us why this had to take place. Even as I write this, I wondered what could have happened if Jesus was there in that ward? The truth is, the Holy Spirit was there comforting each one of us, while Christ was binding the broken heart of the parent, and the Father shedding His tears for them.

The reason why I am writing this in my blog is that, its an alternative for me to share how I feel on the inside and that when I do that I feel lighter on the inside. I pray that God will comfort the family and help them to come through this grief process.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


Thank you Lord that you are continuously guiding me through to the place that you want me to be. I pray that you will be my strong anchor so that the wind and the storm do not misplace me from your plan.

My struggles and frustration, you alone know. My deep thoughts and my deepest fears you alone are aware of it. Every night when I look up to the sky, I stand amazed that you know every star by name.

I know that you care for me so much that I am not able to comprehend it fully sometimes but I pray that you give me the patience that I need.

Psalms 73:26 : My flesh and my heart my fail, but God is the Rock and firm Strength of my heart and my Portion forever.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Holding On

Been very confused lately. Hopefully things will get better.

Psalms 43:3 3 Send forth your light and your truth,
let them guide me;
let them bring me to your holy mountain,
to the place where you dwell.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

His ways

Well just yesterday evening itself, I received a call from the place that I went for the interview in the morning. Not to my surprise, my application was not successful.

But before I got that call from the person who was dealing with my application. Got reminded me a verse from the bible from Isaiah 55:8-9. This was a new experience of God speaking to me like this.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

"As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

(New International Version)

As I was thinking about this verse, the call came. Although at first I was discouraged when I heard that my application was not successful, but God somehow encouraged me to not to give up.

Later on the above verse comforted me in helping me to understand that it was not God's will for me to get that job.

Thank you Lord that you are always with me all the time and that you are working things for good even though I may not understand them.

But help me to understand Lord.